Pictures Oh Gross

Soon To Be Before Pictures

So I decided to take some pictures. These will one day be my before pictures. Uggg when I look at these I don't see myself at all. I guess that might be a good thing. But lets get real I look like crap. I'm huge and and take up a lot of space. I don't look happy. I'm not smiling. I'm going to try to smile in my next ones. Oh Yuck. I do not want to look like this anymore.

So there I am. This was even after I have lost 10 pounds. Maybe I expected to see a little change in the mirror. But......


New clothes

I really hate buying new clothes, especially when I am trying to lose weight. I feel like it will turn out to be a big waste of money. I have no clothes. I have maybe 3 t-shirts that I wear and 1 pair of jeans that only look good with flip flops since they are short in length. So I had to go out and get some jeans. I need some tops to but I'm going to go shopping one more time before I go on vacation. This shopping stuff is pretty much for vacation clothes. I went to Old Navy because they sell mid rise jeans which are the most comfortable for me. I bought a size 18! They are a little tight but I could button them. A 20 was too big this time. Yay! So even though I haven't visibly noticed weight loss it's happening. I also bought this cute t-shirt from Hot Topic, all black with three skulls across the top. XXL of course. But you know I have never been smaller than an XL because of my bust size.


I need to add some walking to my Curves. I'm such an exercise procrastinator. I hate that about me. I'm not gonna get anywhere near my goal if I don't do more. I love to walk to, but since I moved to this house a year ago I have started hating it. I live right off of a highway there is places to walk but sheesh there is so many cars I always feel like everyone is looking at the fat girl trying to lose weight. I need to get over this and quickly.

No freebie today :(

I'll have two again next time!



Anonymous said...

Hi there, I don't even know how I found your blog. But what you have to say is just right up my alley. I feel the same way..... And then I notice you are from July. I'm July 12. I too live in Northern CA. Shop at Old Navy, size 16.

Congrats on the 10 pounds....I lose 3 one week, gain them the next.

Heather said...

I feel like that too..I look in the mirror and feel ok with myself. but then I see a picture and think, OMG THATS what I look like? But dont be so hard on yourself, and just think, you are changing so you dont have to think that anymore. shopping for clothes sucks when you are losing weight, but I do the same thing and then get frustrated!

Therese said...

Good post.

Anonymous said...

Very Interesting!
Thank You!